For anyone that has not read this book I feel very sorry for you. This book has such a strong message involved that every time I read it it makes me want to just sit there and cry. For those of you who have not read this book, let me explain it to you.
This book is about a town were Wemmicks lived, they were wooden people created by a man named Eli who lived on top of the hill. The Wemmicks spent their days sticking gold stars or gray dots on each other. If you were beautiful or had a talent you would receive a gold star. But if you had no talents and wasn't all that great looking you would receive a gray dot. One Wemmick especially received gray dots. His name was Punchinello, all he got was gray dots and he was tired of it. One day he met a girl named Lucia who had no dots or stars at all, she explained that it was because she met with Eli to talk everyday and she had learned not to care about what the other Wemmicks thought because she knew Eli loved her. So Punchinello went and visited Eli and Eli said that it didn't matter what the others thought about him. He said, "All that matters is what I think. And I think you are pretty special." Then Punchinello asked, "Me, special? Why? I can't walk fast I can't jump. My paint is peeling. Why do I matter to you?" And that is when Eli replied with the best answer anyone could possibly give, "Because you're mine. That's why you matter to me."
This book has so much meaning in it and you can relate it to the love of God. He made us and that's why we are special. We are special to him because we are his. Eventually in the story Punchinello stopped caring what the other Wemmicks thought of him and from then on the dots didn't stick and neither did the stars and Punchinello was just happy to be himself.
The Wemmicks are a good example of what society is like today. Although it is not a physical thing we do we are always sticking stars and dots on people. They shouldn't be judged on what they can and can't do, that isn't fair because everyone is unique and special in their own way. And people need to be told everyday that they are special. If I could, I would tell everyone in this world every single day that they are special.
I keep this book by my bed because I like to read it whenever I can. Also when I see the title it reminds me that I am special and that God/Eli does love me c; And I am special because I am his.
And you are special too! Have a great day :)
Monday, January 28, 2013
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Scary Movie Logic.
So you would think that if you were always deathly afraid of being alone or in the dark after watching scary movies that you would stop watching them due to lack of sleep. Most normal people would. But noooo I never learn my lesson when it comes to scary movies. I watch them thinking I will be just fine then for the next two weeks I can't be in the dark, or by myself or in the shower with out music as a distraction... and I can't close my eyes when I am alone. That makes it easier for me to get killed.
I have seen my fair share of scary movies...(Really scary movies, dumb scary movies...etc.) Some of the movies I have seen are: The Grudge 1, 2 & 3; The Collector, Halloween (Which still scare me even if they are old); Paranormal Activity, Don't Look Up (Stupidest movie ever); The Hills Have Eyes; House of Wax; The Crazies; The Lovely Bones (Which wasn't that bad); Chain Letter; Legion... and on the list goes on. I just can't keep myself from watching them. I pee myself every night with any sound I hear. I can't move and I have to be tucked into my blankets at all times.
The reason I post about this today is because I am going to see Mama at five on this very day. I watched the trailer and I was like, "Hmm. Maybe I shouldn't." Then I was like, "Ha! I am totz going to watch that today." And I am having a war between the side of me that hates scary movies and the side of me that loves scary movies. But no matter what I decide I am going to see it anyways. I have a picture to cuddle with.
Yesterday my friend Jasmen asked me if I wanted to see Mama today with her, Kortnee, Josh, and Kenna. I said okay and was excited then Kenna said she can't go because she is going to Salt Lake City. DDD: So I have decided to bring a picture of her and tape it to the seat. The picture is perfect because her face looks confused and scared.
<---- Le picture. It is so perfect. I should bring a pillow too and tape the face on the pillow and hug it when I get scared. But anyways. Since Kenna can't be there with me I have her lovely picture to get all cuddley with!
Everything is just working out perfectly.
But yeah. So wish me luck tonight as I embark on this journey of seeing a scary movie. I doubt I will be able to sleep tonight. :)
Have a good day!!!!
I have seen my fair share of scary movies...(Really scary movies, dumb scary movies...etc.) Some of the movies I have seen are: The Grudge 1, 2 & 3; The Collector, Halloween (Which still scare me even if they are old); Paranormal Activity, Don't Look Up (Stupidest movie ever); The Hills Have Eyes; House of Wax; The Crazies; The Lovely Bones (Which wasn't that bad); Chain Letter; Legion... and on the list goes on. I just can't keep myself from watching them. I pee myself every night with any sound I hear. I can't move and I have to be tucked into my blankets at all times.
The reason I post about this today is because I am going to see Mama at five on this very day. I watched the trailer and I was like, "Hmm. Maybe I shouldn't." Then I was like, "Ha! I am totz going to watch that today." And I am having a war between the side of me that hates scary movies and the side of me that loves scary movies. But no matter what I decide I am going to see it anyways. I have a picture to cuddle with.
Yesterday my friend Jasmen asked me if I wanted to see Mama today with her, Kortnee, Josh, and Kenna. I said okay and was excited then Kenna said she can't go because she is going to Salt Lake City. DDD: So I have decided to bring a picture of her and tape it to the seat. The picture is perfect because her face looks confused and scared.
<---- Le picture. It is so perfect. I should bring a pillow too and tape the face on the pillow and hug it when I get scared. But anyways. Since Kenna can't be there with me I have her lovely picture to get all cuddley with!
Everything is just working out perfectly.
But yeah. So wish me luck tonight as I embark on this journey of seeing a scary movie. I doubt I will be able to sleep tonight. :)
Have a good day!!!!
Friday, January 25, 2013
Why I Hate Being a Girl.
So this hate of being a girl is not constant. It's only when I am on my period or having cramps or being bagged on by a guy for being a girl that "can't do anything." (Yeah that still happens in this day and age.) I may even hate being a girl when I don't know how to do my hair or I can't find something to wear.
I think one of my biggest break downs was in ninth grade. I woke up that morning feeling just fine, then people started talking to me, and I didn't know what to wear, and my ride was coming soon and I just had a major freak out and I was crying and complaining and my mom decided to let me stay home because I didn't want anyone to see my cry just because they talked to me. So I was fine the whole day until my dad came home during lunch and started talking to me and he said that I needed to stop being that way and that is when I freaked out.
I hate it when guys act like they understand what girls go through when they really don't. When in history were guys ever discriminated except for if they were black? Never. Guys have always been looked up to with respect. Honestly, I think girls do way more then a guy could ever do.
Girls can feed a baby a bottle while cleaning at the same time... and a guy? They can barley feed a baby a bottle while watching TV. I sound like a crazy mom who has finally had it with her husband but I am not married, I am only 16 and far from being married. But I know this stuff from experience. And I know that guys are disrespectful of girls at least once a day, or maybe this is just the perspective of a teenage girl who spends most of her time in a High School full of desperate boys... and a couple of desperate girls.
But don't worry, there are still plenty of reasons why I love being a girl. One of them is because in a relationship girls are the one to be protected by their partner. Physically protected, every girl needs someone to hug them and tell them everything will be fine. Even if you are a fifteen year old hoe, they have their break downs too.
Something that I just have to say is that sometimes schools come up with the stupidest things ever. For example, Gender Wars. My school did that last year when I was a sophomore and that resulted in Gender Wars being banned from the school. Since this is the most interesting story in the world I just have to tell you it.
So it all started with a text. A text that was being forwarded around to all the girls in the school that read, "Bring sparkles to Gender Wars tomorrow. After the school dance everyone run onto the gym floor and throw up the sparkles." But since I got the text at 10:00 that night I wasn't going to bother bringing sparkles.
But it didn't matter if I did anyways because the next day at Gender Wars some of the girls from the student council were handing out little jars of sparkles. I must add that this text, the girls little surprise was not something the teachers knew about.
So during Gender Wars we had some competition between the girls and the boys and we had to play a few games against each other and all of the points were being added up to see who was the ultimate gender. Well during this the boys were chanting, "Make me a sandwich." And that really got the girls mad. They even bought spatulas and started throwing them at us! (Boys were on one side of the gym and the girls were on the other.) The teachers didn't even do anything, not even when they started chanting, "Go back to the kitchen."
So then finally the dances came. A few boys had gotten a dance together and a few girls had gotten a dance together. The boys performed first and we were very nice to them when they did perform, we clapped and everything. Then the girls went up to perform and then all of a sudden every single boy had a newspaper. Every single boy on the "boys bleachers" were hiding behind a newspaper chanting something like, "This is going to be boring." I don't remember what exactly they chanted but that is about what they were saying. So the girls did their dance anyways and some boys poked holes through their newspapers so they could watch and some pretended like they didn't want to and others completely put the newspaper down to watch.
When the girls dance was over every single girl on the bleachers all ran down and danced in the middle of the gym and we all threw up the sparkles. (Which the boys later on said looked very cool.) I had sparkles in my hair for weeks after that. And sparkles were all over the school. You some how managed to get sparkles on you no matter what you were doing. Well the teachers got mad at our stunt but they didn't care about the guys newspaper stunt (Which the teachers also did not know about.)
But then a girl from the student council swept up all the sparkles and when we got back to class the teachers told everyone how disappointed they were... I even think they had an assembly about it the next day. But Gender Wars was officially banned. I forgot to mention that at the end of this many of the girls got tampons from their bags, took them out of the plastic thing and threw them at boys because of their wonderful spatula stunt. Lets just say the girls were not going to put up with their crap.
And I must add that after Gender Wars was lunch time and I was with my really good friend, Marcos. We were eating lunch and he started throwing fries at me then told me to clean it up because I am a woman and it is my job. I stormed away and didn't talk to him for a week. He is better this year, he even opens doors for me and doesn't treat me like that anymore. I have to say that he has grown up.
Some things I do hate about being a girl:
-Periods/period cramps
-Mood swings
-Picking out outfits
-Having a hard time running because of your boobs
-Shaving all the time
-Having pedophiles hit on you
-Pressure from the media
-Being disrespected by guys
-Being called a hoe for no apparent reason
-And finally, Having to look perfect all the time because apparently it is expected of girls to look perfect all the time or you will not be accepted into society.
So there was one of my beautiful rants. Hope you enjoyed and maybe even you feel the same way sometimes. c: Have a nice day!!
I think one of my biggest break downs was in ninth grade. I woke up that morning feeling just fine, then people started talking to me, and I didn't know what to wear, and my ride was coming soon and I just had a major freak out and I was crying and complaining and my mom decided to let me stay home because I didn't want anyone to see my cry just because they talked to me. So I was fine the whole day until my dad came home during lunch and started talking to me and he said that I needed to stop being that way and that is when I freaked out.
I hate it when guys act like they understand what girls go through when they really don't. When in history were guys ever discriminated except for if they were black? Never. Guys have always been looked up to with respect. Honestly, I think girls do way more then a guy could ever do.
Girls can feed a baby a bottle while cleaning at the same time... and a guy? They can barley feed a baby a bottle while watching TV. I sound like a crazy mom who has finally had it with her husband but I am not married, I am only 16 and far from being married. But I know this stuff from experience. And I know that guys are disrespectful of girls at least once a day, or maybe this is just the perspective of a teenage girl who spends most of her time in a High School full of desperate boys... and a couple of desperate girls.
But don't worry, there are still plenty of reasons why I love being a girl. One of them is because in a relationship girls are the one to be protected by their partner. Physically protected, every girl needs someone to hug them and tell them everything will be fine. Even if you are a fifteen year old hoe, they have their break downs too.
Something that I just have to say is that sometimes schools come up with the stupidest things ever. For example, Gender Wars. My school did that last year when I was a sophomore and that resulted in Gender Wars being banned from the school. Since this is the most interesting story in the world I just have to tell you it.
So it all started with a text. A text that was being forwarded around to all the girls in the school that read, "Bring sparkles to Gender Wars tomorrow. After the school dance everyone run onto the gym floor and throw up the sparkles." But since I got the text at 10:00 that night I wasn't going to bother bringing sparkles.
But it didn't matter if I did anyways because the next day at Gender Wars some of the girls from the student council were handing out little jars of sparkles. I must add that this text, the girls little surprise was not something the teachers knew about.
So during Gender Wars we had some competition between the girls and the boys and we had to play a few games against each other and all of the points were being added up to see who was the ultimate gender. Well during this the boys were chanting, "Make me a sandwich." And that really got the girls mad. They even bought spatulas and started throwing them at us! (Boys were on one side of the gym and the girls were on the other.) The teachers didn't even do anything, not even when they started chanting, "Go back to the kitchen."
So then finally the dances came. A few boys had gotten a dance together and a few girls had gotten a dance together. The boys performed first and we were very nice to them when they did perform, we clapped and everything. Then the girls went up to perform and then all of a sudden every single boy had a newspaper. Every single boy on the "boys bleachers" were hiding behind a newspaper chanting something like, "This is going to be boring." I don't remember what exactly they chanted but that is about what they were saying. So the girls did their dance anyways and some boys poked holes through their newspapers so they could watch and some pretended like they didn't want to and others completely put the newspaper down to watch.
When the girls dance was over every single girl on the bleachers all ran down and danced in the middle of the gym and we all threw up the sparkles. (Which the boys later on said looked very cool.) I had sparkles in my hair for weeks after that. And sparkles were all over the school. You some how managed to get sparkles on you no matter what you were doing. Well the teachers got mad at our stunt but they didn't care about the guys newspaper stunt (Which the teachers also did not know about.)
But then a girl from the student council swept up all the sparkles and when we got back to class the teachers told everyone how disappointed they were... I even think they had an assembly about it the next day. But Gender Wars was officially banned. I forgot to mention that at the end of this many of the girls got tampons from their bags, took them out of the plastic thing and threw them at boys because of their wonderful spatula stunt. Lets just say the girls were not going to put up with their crap.
And I must add that after Gender Wars was lunch time and I was with my really good friend, Marcos. We were eating lunch and he started throwing fries at me then told me to clean it up because I am a woman and it is my job. I stormed away and didn't talk to him for a week. He is better this year, he even opens doors for me and doesn't treat me like that anymore. I have to say that he has grown up.
Some things I do hate about being a girl:
-Periods/period cramps
-Mood swings
-Picking out outfits
-Having a hard time running because of your boobs
-Shaving all the time
-Having pedophiles hit on you
-Pressure from the media
-Being disrespected by guys
-Being called a hoe for no apparent reason
-And finally, Having to look perfect all the time because apparently it is expected of girls to look perfect all the time or you will not be accepted into society.
So there was one of my beautiful rants. Hope you enjoyed and maybe even you feel the same way sometimes. c: Have a nice day!!
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Who am I? Personality Bible
Just thought I would tell you a little bit more about myself so you can get a better idea of who I am c:
Name: Jessalyn Jean Adamson
Birthdate: 08/29/96
Hospital: Hospital in Orem o.e
Parents: Melanie and Bryce Adamson :D
Siblings: Jaron, me, Jalyssa, Jeric.
Pets: I have had three cats, fifteen rats, two mice, and lots of gold fish!
Interests: Writing, reading, nail art, make up,
Places I have been: Utah, California, Wyoming, Colorado, Montana, Idaho. I HOPE TO GO MANY MORE PLACES :DD
Ancestors: Ancestors came from Scotland. I also have some Indian in me. A man I am related to came to America and met Princess Sun Cloud from an Indian tribe and married her. So I am a Indian Princess in a tribe that no longer exists c;
Future Plans: I want to be a creative writing teacher. Not an English teacher but a creative writing teacher c:
Schools I have attended: Art City Elementary, Westside Elementary, Springville Junior High, Springville High School.
Fav Band: I have many! Pierce The Veil, Thriving Ivory, Evenesence, Hollywood Undead, Simple Plan...etc.
Fav Song: King For a Day, She Is Love, Build God Then We'll Talk... etc.
Fav Foods: Pretzels, and popcorn have always been my favorite. But really, I will eat any kind of food.
Fav Color: Purple and lime green.
Fav Sports: Snowboarding and soccer
If I had a hundred dollars what would I do with it??
Go shopping :D #NormalTeenger xD
If I could go any where in the world where would that be??
I would go to Hawaii to visit my cousins <3 or I would go to the U.K. so I could see my friend, Chris. c: He is going to feed me bacon through a mail slot in his closet :D
If I was famous what would I like to be famous for??
I would love to be famous for acting! Or singing... but unfortunately I can't do either :(
If I was famous what would I BE famous for??
Probably for writing.
If my plan to be a creative writing teacher doesn't pan out what would I like to be?
I would love to be a Special Education teacher c: My mom has taught Special Education forever o.o My grandma did it and so does my aunt and uncle c:
So that is just a little bit about me and if you want to know more feel free to comment questions :D
Name: Jessalyn Jean Adamson
Birthdate: 08/29/96
Hospital: Hospital in Orem o.e
Parents: Melanie and Bryce Adamson :D
Siblings: Jaron, me, Jalyssa, Jeric.
Pets: I have had three cats, fifteen rats, two mice, and lots of gold fish!
Interests: Writing, reading, nail art, make up,
Places I have been: Utah, California, Wyoming, Colorado, Montana, Idaho. I HOPE TO GO MANY MORE PLACES :DD
Ancestors: Ancestors came from Scotland. I also have some Indian in me. A man I am related to came to America and met Princess Sun Cloud from an Indian tribe and married her. So I am a Indian Princess in a tribe that no longer exists c;
Future Plans: I want to be a creative writing teacher. Not an English teacher but a creative writing teacher c:
Schools I have attended: Art City Elementary, Westside Elementary, Springville Junior High, Springville High School.
Fav Band: I have many! Pierce The Veil, Thriving Ivory, Evenesence, Hollywood Undead, Simple Plan...etc.
Fav Song: King For a Day, She Is Love, Build God Then We'll Talk... etc.
Fav Foods: Pretzels, and popcorn have always been my favorite. But really, I will eat any kind of food.
Fav Color: Purple and lime green.
Fav Sports: Snowboarding and soccer
If I had a hundred dollars what would I do with it??
Go shopping :D #NormalTeenger xD
If I could go any where in the world where would that be??
I would go to Hawaii to visit my cousins <3 or I would go to the U.K. so I could see my friend, Chris. c: He is going to feed me bacon through a mail slot in his closet :D
If I was famous what would I like to be famous for??
I would love to be famous for acting! Or singing... but unfortunately I can't do either :(
If I was famous what would I BE famous for??
Probably for writing.
If my plan to be a creative writing teacher doesn't pan out what would I like to be?
I would love to be a Special Education teacher c: My mom has taught Special Education forever o.o My grandma did it and so does my aunt and uncle c:
So that is just a little bit about me and if you want to know more feel free to comment questions :D
Thought you might enjoy this C: |
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
One Lovely Blog Award-- I tag everyone c:
Lovely Blog
I was tagged by Author Rebecca Lamoreaux in the One Lovely Blog Award.
For this blog hop, all you have to do it list seven random facts about yourself .... I can do that :)
Seven random facts about me:
1. I was originally going to be named Jessica but my mom thought the name was too popular so she looked in a baby book and found my name!
Baby Jessalyn ^-^ |
2. I hated skiing and snowboarding when I first tried it and didn't do it for like 2 years after trying it.. but just last year I decided to try snowboarding again and I LOVE it! Skiing not so much.. Snowboarder for life ;D
3. My name on Facebook says "Jessalyn Boomer Adamson" But Boomer is not my real middle name, it is Jean. The name Boomer was given to me back in 2010 when my friends gifted me the nick name xD
4. I love doing hair and make up and choosing out outfits. I spend a lot of time on YouTube watching videos on make up tutorials and hair tutorials and outfit ideas c:
5. I can not keep quiet during movies. I went to see Finding Nemo 3D with a guy friend and I was literally on the edge of my seat screaming at the screen whenever something went wrong.
6. Popcorn is my favorite food in the whole entire world, I honestly don't know why I enjoy it so much!
7. I can live without my phone but if you take away my laptop I promise you that Hell will break loose. My laptop is my baby!!!
Monday, January 21, 2013
Picture Ranting C:
So seriously, I love this idea above. But I don't think I could ever write that. I think about it all the time. I lie awake at night thinking about how I could write this as a story. I mean like... you can't fall in love with someone unless you can be in the story. And what if the reader was a boy and the main character was a boy? Maybe you can just not mention the gender of the main character and they could be journal entries about how this person is falling in love with someone... but the main character doesn't know that person is reading his/her journal. o.e Or maybe they will know and that's why the main character is falling in love with the reader. This idea is so easy it makes it complicated if that makes sense.
But I really love this idea and I am sure I will eventually try it then I will fail miserably :)
This picture to the left I also believe is very true. I always read an amazing book then I am like O_O -Gets out paper and plans to write the best thing in the world- Yeah. That's my life for ya. Maybe some day I can write something that inspires other people to do the same. I want to write something amazing like "Speak" or "Thirteen Reasons Why." Something that sends out an awesome message and is a great read, something that can change someones life. :)
I hate writers block and I seem to get it a lot more then I should. Maybe I should sleep with a book on my head, it could inspire me to write. The longest time I went without writing was probably three to four months. I hate having writers block because I always tell myself that I need to do something, so I will sit down in front of the TV because for some reason I think it's the best thing ever to watch a movie or TV while writing. But all I really do is stare at the TV while my work just stares at me wanting to be created. I wish writers block didn't exist because then that would make my life so much easier!
Yes. Yes. Yes. Reading is just the most amazing thing in this world so if you don't read then I don't think we can be friends. I am totally just kidding a lot of my friends don't read but I love them anyways. I think people sound really stupid when they are just like, "I don't read." it just makes you look so dumb and not cool at all. Sorry, Bro. I even told a kid that was like, "Yeah I don't read." I said out loud to him, "That doesn't make you look cool that makes you look stupid." And he was all quiet and it got a bit awkward and the teacher changed the subject. Yeah that was great. But anyways. Read, girl or boy, human or alien, read!!! :)
But I really love this idea and I am sure I will eventually try it then I will fail miserably :)
This picture to the left I also believe is very true. I always read an amazing book then I am like O_O -Gets out paper and plans to write the best thing in the world- Yeah. That's my life for ya. Maybe some day I can write something that inspires other people to do the same. I want to write something amazing like "Speak" or "Thirteen Reasons Why." Something that sends out an awesome message and is a great read, something that can change someones life. :)
I hate writers block and I seem to get it a lot more then I should. Maybe I should sleep with a book on my head, it could inspire me to write. The longest time I went without writing was probably three to four months. I hate having writers block because I always tell myself that I need to do something, so I will sit down in front of the TV because for some reason I think it's the best thing ever to watch a movie or TV while writing. But all I really do is stare at the TV while my work just stares at me wanting to be created. I wish writers block didn't exist because then that would make my life so much easier!
Yes. Yes. Yes. Reading is just the most amazing thing in this world so if you don't read then I don't think we can be friends. I am totally just kidding a lot of my friends don't read but I love them anyways. I think people sound really stupid when they are just like, "I don't read." it just makes you look so dumb and not cool at all. Sorry, Bro. I even told a kid that was like, "Yeah I don't read." I said out loud to him, "That doesn't make you look cool that makes you look stupid." And he was all quiet and it got a bit awkward and the teacher changed the subject. Yeah that was great. But anyways. Read, girl or boy, human or alien, read!!! :)
Sunday, January 20, 2013
Writing And What It Has Done To Me.
I have realized I don't have much to rant about. And I don't have anything to rant about what am I supposed to post on my blog?
Maybe my post about me being creative was all a lie. So I have resorted to Googling things to post about. And Google isn't helping very much so I will come up with my own, I have got this. Pictures always give me good things to rant about, and this one picture seems to be the perfect match to something that I may rant about!
Does any other writer find this picture to be totally true? I mean like... my brain is always like "kdfjkafldsahfdslfj;d" When ever I am writing, the devil inside of me tell me to just write whatever because I can just go back and fix it. But no Devil within! I will not fall to your temptations. I am a perfectionist when it comes to writing and I just can't throw crap on paper, it just doesn't work for me like that!
Food is my life and I wouldn't be able to get anything done without it. I swear I am always eating it and I should weigh like 300 pounds from all the food I eat but I haven't gotten that heavy yet. I am always eating, in class, when I am bored, when I am writing, when I am watching a movie... all. The. Time.
Hmm not sure if I have ever thrown something but I am sure the time will come when I throw something because I cannot figure out what to write. I do get frustrated when my writing blocks decide to skip into my life and turn it into a living Hell. But I believe that one day I will throw something, and I am excited for that day to come. (Hopefully it's not my laptop because I am tempted all the time to throw it.)
Comparing my work to others... hmm I do that all the time but sometimes I feel cocky if someone elses work as I categorize is "lower then mine." Does that make me cocky? Or am I just supposed to tell them their work is terrible and be brutally honest. But then I start thinking about good critiquing that can actually help them. I have had my share of people read my work and say, "You suck. Give up on everything and maybe die in a hole while your're at it." How on Earth is that going to help me. ._. Now I would like you better if you said, "You suck. Give up on everything and maybe die in a hole while you're at it. BUT, if you aren't going to give up that easily you can fix your description, and make your dialogue more interesting...etc." I hate when my readers tell me how much everything sucked that I wrote then they don't even tell me how to make it better, so now I just think, "If they don't know how to tell me how to make it better they must not know what they are talking about." So I have learned to ignore that. But anyways, I don't like comparing myself to anyone elses work because we are all at different levels and we all have our own unique way of
writing. c:
Crying O_O Um I don't cry much as I write but when I am writing a horror novel I tend to scare myself as I am writing. Then I have nightmares about my own horror novels. Yeah, you have to have at least one mental illness to have that happen to you. Surprisingly when I wrote the first book to The COE (Children of Eliza) Trilogy I wasn't really, like, how do I say this? I didn't care much about my characters and it was easy to kill them off. But now that I am writing the second book I am just like DDD: I don't want to leave them! I only have two books left! I really love Ruby and all the other characters in there and I just don't want to leave them. Ruby has definitely become a part of me. I think it's safe to say I love her, I care about her like a close friend. I wish characters from books could come alive so I could meet them. I want to meet Ruby. Like, really bad. I am pretty sure I will cry when I finish The COE trilogy. I will bawl like a little baby. I am not good with good byes.
I spend way too much time internet surfing when I am supposed to be writing. I switch from Facebook to Wattpad to checking my email to asking random questions on Yahoo! Answers and sometimes even my blog is super distracting. Last week our internet was down for a day and I got so much writing done I was so proud of myself and if I had money I would have bought myself something nice for getting so much done. But since I am a poor and jobless teenager I just ate more food. Although it was nice being able to get all that writing done I practically cried when the internet still wasn't working by the end of the day. I need my internet. So it's only allowed to go down once a month... or less then that. c:
When I actually write I feel so accomplished. I need to do it more and be more oraganized with my time especially if I want to finish The COE book two and No Regrets this year... AND start other books. I have like five ideas I have been wanting to write about but I promised myself I would finish these two books. I am only allowed to write two books at a time. No Regrets is closer to being done then The COE is so when I am done with No Regrets I can just start another one. I need better plans and time management. ._.
Well this ranting session was successful. Hopefully it wasn't too boring. Please still follow me, I will pay you. Just kidding I am a poor jobless teenager :D Well bye! I hope your day is great and hopefully I made you smile at least once while reading this. :)
Maybe my post about me being creative was all a lie. So I have resorted to Googling things to post about. And Google isn't helping very much so I will come up with my own, I have got this. Pictures always give me good things to rant about, and this one picture seems to be the perfect match to something that I may rant about!
Does any other writer find this picture to be totally true? I mean like... my brain is always like "kdfjkafldsahfdslfj;d" When ever I am writing, the devil inside of me tell me to just write whatever because I can just go back and fix it. But no Devil within! I will not fall to your temptations. I am a perfectionist when it comes to writing and I just can't throw crap on paper, it just doesn't work for me like that!
Food is my life and I wouldn't be able to get anything done without it. I swear I am always eating it and I should weigh like 300 pounds from all the food I eat but I haven't gotten that heavy yet. I am always eating, in class, when I am bored, when I am writing, when I am watching a movie... all. The. Time.
Hmm not sure if I have ever thrown something but I am sure the time will come when I throw something because I cannot figure out what to write. I do get frustrated when my writing blocks decide to skip into my life and turn it into a living Hell. But I believe that one day I will throw something, and I am excited for that day to come. (Hopefully it's not my laptop because I am tempted all the time to throw it.)
Comparing my work to others... hmm I do that all the time but sometimes I feel cocky if someone elses work as I categorize is "lower then mine." Does that make me cocky? Or am I just supposed to tell them their work is terrible and be brutally honest. But then I start thinking about good critiquing that can actually help them. I have had my share of people read my work and say, "You suck. Give up on everything and maybe die in a hole while your're at it." How on Earth is that going to help me. ._. Now I would like you better if you said, "You suck. Give up on everything and maybe die in a hole while you're at it. BUT, if you aren't going to give up that easily you can fix your description, and make your dialogue more interesting...etc." I hate when my readers tell me how much everything sucked that I wrote then they don't even tell me how to make it better, so now I just think, "If they don't know how to tell me how to make it better they must not know what they are talking about." So I have learned to ignore that. But anyways, I don't like comparing myself to anyone elses work because we are all at different levels and we all have our own unique way of
writing. c:
Crying O_O Um I don't cry much as I write but when I am writing a horror novel I tend to scare myself as I am writing. Then I have nightmares about my own horror novels. Yeah, you have to have at least one mental illness to have that happen to you. Surprisingly when I wrote the first book to The COE (Children of Eliza) Trilogy I wasn't really, like, how do I say this? I didn't care much about my characters and it was easy to kill them off. But now that I am writing the second book I am just like DDD: I don't want to leave them! I only have two books left! I really love Ruby and all the other characters in there and I just don't want to leave them. Ruby has definitely become a part of me. I think it's safe to say I love her, I care about her like a close friend. I wish characters from books could come alive so I could meet them. I want to meet Ruby. Like, really bad. I am pretty sure I will cry when I finish The COE trilogy. I will bawl like a little baby. I am not good with good byes.
I spend way too much time internet surfing when I am supposed to be writing. I switch from Facebook to Wattpad to checking my email to asking random questions on Yahoo! Answers and sometimes even my blog is super distracting. Last week our internet was down for a day and I got so much writing done I was so proud of myself and if I had money I would have bought myself something nice for getting so much done. But since I am a poor and jobless teenager I just ate more food. Although it was nice being able to get all that writing done I practically cried when the internet still wasn't working by the end of the day. I need my internet. So it's only allowed to go down once a month... or less then that. c:
When I actually write I feel so accomplished. I need to do it more and be more oraganized with my time especially if I want to finish The COE book two and No Regrets this year... AND start other books. I have like five ideas I have been wanting to write about but I promised myself I would finish these two books. I am only allowed to write two books at a time. No Regrets is closer to being done then The COE is so when I am done with No Regrets I can just start another one. I need better plans and time management. ._.
Well this ranting session was successful. Hopefully it wasn't too boring. Please still follow me, I will pay you. Just kidding I am a poor jobless teenager :D Well bye! I hope your day is great and hopefully I made you smile at least once while reading this. :)
Saturday, January 19, 2013
HauntedSong Interview :)
Hello everyone! So as some of you may know I am a Wattpadder :) Well recently I have discovered a fourteen-year-old girl on Wattpad who is an amazing writer. Like, she is way talented for her age, way more talented then I was at her age. I have decided to interview her so she can get more attention and more people to read her work because she totally deserves it! Here is the wonderful interview, and if you would like I would appreciate it if you would check out her work and maybe even post your thoughts and this interview to your blog :) Thanks :)
1. How old are you and what grade level?
I am fourteen years old and a freshman in high school.
2. Could you maybe include a picture of yourself unless you feel uncomfortable with that.
Here you go!
3. What are your other interests or anything else you would want people to know about you, maybe even a random fact :)
I play a lot of piano and bass guitar. I also draw a lot, and I'd like to get into photography.
4. How long have you been writing? And if it hasn't been more then three years what made you decide you wanted to write?
I've been writing for almost a year now. Believe it or not, before then, I hated writing! In 8th grade, there was this project where we had to write a sequel chapter for a book we'd read, and naturally, I left writing it until half an hour before it was due. So I wrote it really fast and handed it in, and somehow got a 100. And I figured it was the first time I'd written creatively, and I'd had tons of fun, so why not try it some more? It turned into an addiction.
5. Is there a certain genre you have been writing or do you write all genres?
I lean towards horror/fantasy, but I will occasionally write things in other genres (example: "Salvaged" was a historical fiction drabble). I like the freedom the genre of fantasy gives to create an entirely new world where anything is possible.
6. Where do you plan do go with your writing? (Self publishing... finding an agent...etc.)
Ideally, I'd find an agent and get published, and be successful to the point where I'd be able to be a full-time author. Until then, I'll probably also use my writing to develop a career in journalism.
7. Where does your inspirations and/or ideas come from?
There's a lot of influence from movies, music, other books, etc., but I also try to find inspiration in everyday life. I use a lot of conversations I have with friends or overhear to develop my characters' personalities. I'll occasionally think, "Okay, I want this character to sort of be like ________,". It's kind of creepy, but I figure everyone has their own sort of creeper-factor.
8. What have you been doing to practice/develop your writing skills?
I try to write every day. If I don't work on my book, I'm working on something else. Recently, I've had to put everything on hold, though, since my first exams are just around the corner.
9. Do you see writing as a possible future career, if not what do you plan on doing as a career?
I see it as inevitable that a career will come from my writing. I don't really want to do anything else.
10. As a new (Or maybe long time author) what is your advice for anyone that has just decided they love writing and want to pursue it?
Practice and commit. You won't be a good writer if you only know how to write the beginnings of stories, and you definitely won't be a good writer if you don't practice writing!
I would like to ask questions that don't particularly pertain to anything imparticular.
1. Do you have any favorite characters? (Characters you have written about)
I found Vincent Valentini so interesting, that I've been debating writing a spinoff just about him. I experimented with how it felt to be completely focused on his actions in "Nox", and I thoroughly enjoyed it!
2. What character would you invite to dinner and why?
From my book, definitely Abigail Wright. She's hilarious! I think we'd have fun being excruciatingly weird and awkward together over food.
3. Which character do you find is the most like you?
Definitely John Lareos. He was actually named after a close friend who he was actually supposed to be like, but he ended up being a lot like me. He's very quiet, but when he does talk, it's with killer sarcasm.
4. Do you read a lot?
Of course I do!
5. What kind of books do you read?
A lot of horror/fantasy, because I think that allows the reader's imagination to run wild with possibilities. But I'll occasionally read out of the genre.
6. Do the books you read inspire you?
Very much! Mostly because books--even the types of books I read (horror/fantasy)--spread information. If you look it up, a lot of these books carry ancient folk tales or myths. It's easy to draw inspiration even from the old stuff.
7. Do you remember the first piece you ever wrote?
I think I was in first grade, and I wrote a story about chicks escaping a farm. Somewhere in there I think I even included a Hispanic dragon. I might've been a little too creative as a kid.
8. How much do you feel you have improved since you first began writing?
I think I've come a long way. Sometimes I'll read things I wrote just last year and think, "How the hell did I think that was a good idea?" That's because I'm always looking to improve. I look at my own writing with a critical attitude and think about what I definitely don't like, and what I definitely do. I think it's important, as a writer, to not assume that your writing is fine the way it is. I'm constantly adapting my writing style.
9. What room is your favorite to write in?
My bedroom. Both my dad's house and my mom's house are always extremely noisy and busy, and it's very hard to concentrate. It's much quieter in my room.
10. Who was your favorite childhood author? What about your favorite author today?
As a kid, I really liked Andrew Clements after reading "No Talking". Now, I really like Stephen King and Darren Shan.
11. What is your favorite thing you've written?
Well, aside from my book, since that's a no-brainer, I'd have to say my favorite thing I've written is the short story spinoff, "Nox"
12. How do you choose the names for your characters?
Occasionally, I'll name them after people I know (i.e. John). Sometimes I'll think, "Hey I want this guy to be Italian." (Vincent Valentini). Other times I'll look up what certain names mean and pick one based on the character's personality. On the rare occasion that I write historical fiction, I'll first decide whether or not the time and place of the story would increase the likelihood that the characters' names would sound a certain way.
13. what do you think makes good writing?
I think it's a collection of things. I mean, if you don't have a good plot, your story's going to suck. If your characters aren't vivid, your story's going to suck. If you don't have a style of writing that engages the reader, your story's going suck. It really is a combination of different things that have to come together to make an awesome piece.
14. What made you fall in love with writing?
Writing is one of the few ways that you can be the god of a universe you created. In writing, you can decide when it rains or what people are like. Your characters can live out a life you'd never experience otherwise. The laws of science don't even apply, if you don't want them to. It's just an interesting tool, I think, to explore things that other people would have never imagined.
15. How do you beat out your writers block?
I usually read or watch a movie. For some reason, seeing other people's ideas come to life makes me want mine to come to life, too.
Now I want you to choose a specific book you want to get the most attention and answer the following questions:
1. How did you come up with the title?
The title was easy. The book was about an assassin, so I literally just named it, "The Assassin". I guess you could say I lack creativity when it comes to titles. However, before it's published, my titles (as well as character names) are always subject to change.
2. Summary of the book?
Ancient legend has it that a mirror, given to the people by the gods, "will both create and destroy the holder's enemies." Never was the verse understood by those who hadn't held it themselves, people who lived thousands of years ago. When the beings of these civilizations disappeared, the mirror was assumed to be lost forever in the ruins of an ancient kingdom.
At least, it was until curiosity stepped in.
In Orldea, everyone struggles. They struggle to abide by the rules of their government, to find work, and to keep their families safe from the all too frequent crime. But in The Association, the people struggle to kill without remorse, to stay hidden, and, for one girl, to keep a secret. Raven Noire is in trouble, and she knew it the second she'd taken the damned thing from the ruins years ago. Now, a mistake made as a curious child has turned into a lethal secret that could turn their country into one of chaos and war, should it escape... and somebody's let the cat out of the bag.
3. Is there a message in your novel that you want readers to grasp?
Bad things happen. Sometimes they happen for no reason at all, and sometimes they've been building up, but the important thing to do is take responsibility for your actions and deal with it, rather than focusing on how things could've been.
4. Are experiences based on someone you know, or events in your own life?
Absolutely. There is a lot of internal conflict within Raven that I think everyone can relate to, but there are some other personal things that I've thrown in there.
5. What has been the hardest thing of writing your book?
Definitely getting through the length. Whenever I would try to write a book before, I'd always stop for some reason a few pages in, even though I knew exactly where I wanted the story to go. I lacked the ability to seriously commit to my story.
6. Do you have anything specific you want to say to your readers?
Thanks for reading! Seriously, I don't have many, so I really appreciate it.
7. What can readers expect from you in the future?
A hell of a lot more than I've been giving them! I'm moving on to bigger and bigger things every day, so expect a book soon, rather than a few short stories now and then.
Read her work here: http://www.wattpad.com/user/HauntedSong
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Creativeness is a gift!!
So many people are always asking me how I get my story idea, saying that they could never come up with something like that. Well dear, I was born creative ;D
Ever since I was little I was always thinking up worlds and I have had my share of imaginary friends. I was a crazy creative child but it wasn't until second or third grade that I started using my creativeness to write stories. Since I am thinking about it now I must tell you some stories about my creativeness as a child :D
Since third to maybe... fifth grade my sister and I were always making up invisible kids. Dolls were overrated! We couldn't take those to church or swimming or on vacations... why not just have an imaginary child we could take with us? So we did. We were always thinking up these invisible kids and coming up with names and cutting pictures out of magazines to define what they looked like. The best part was being able to un-mom ourselves when ever we wanted.
Pink Flyers. We were the amazing Pink Flyers. While camping one year in Yellowstone my sister, cousins and I made up the Pink Flyers. We were hot, crime fighting spies with awesome high-tec gear. We would send ourselves on missions and be faced with life or death situations C: We were cool.
I had to always be busy doing something. I made a lot of cardboard dolls in my childhood. Coloring books were ok but I liked to be doing something more.
Ideas are always running through my head. When ever i see something I think of how I could add it into a book. When I meet someone new I think about how much they remind me of a character or about how much I want to turn them into a character. Being creative is such a gift to me. Creativeness helps my writing and with out writing I don't know who I would be.
Ever since I was little I was always thinking up worlds and I have had my share of imaginary friends. I was a crazy creative child but it wasn't until second or third grade that I started using my creativeness to write stories. Since I am thinking about it now I must tell you some stories about my creativeness as a child :D
Since third to maybe... fifth grade my sister and I were always making up invisible kids. Dolls were overrated! We couldn't take those to church or swimming or on vacations... why not just have an imaginary child we could take with us? So we did. We were always thinking up these invisible kids and coming up with names and cutting pictures out of magazines to define what they looked like. The best part was being able to un-mom ourselves when ever we wanted.
Pink Flyers. We were the amazing Pink Flyers. While camping one year in Yellowstone my sister, cousins and I made up the Pink Flyers. We were hot, crime fighting spies with awesome high-tec gear. We would send ourselves on missions and be faced with life or death situations C: We were cool.
I had to always be busy doing something. I made a lot of cardboard dolls in my childhood. Coloring books were ok but I liked to be doing something more.
Ideas are always running through my head. When ever i see something I think of how I could add it into a book. When I meet someone new I think about how much they remind me of a character or about how much I want to turn them into a character. Being creative is such a gift to me. Creativeness helps my writing and with out writing I don't know who I would be.
Sunday, January 13, 2013
Embarrassing Moment.
I need to spice this blog up a bit. Lets hear one of my embarrassing stories, I can't say this one is funny but it sure was embarrassing. (Takes place in summer of 2010)
Every year I go to Carpinteria, California with my family and all of my cousins and we just have a big party. Carp is where you can camp RIGHT next to the beach and swim whenever you want. The two best things in one... camping and the beach. Well anyways... my cousins, siblings, and I for some reason always hang out by the bathrooms... we really have no idea why. But we met this dude... his name was Cody and he was there with his friends... James and Bryan. At the time I was 14. Cody was 19, James was 16 and Bryan was 14. Surprisingly the one that I was attracted to and the one that was attracted to me was James. I thought I was so cool because he was 16 and I was only 14.
My whole family (including relatives) had played a HUGE game of soccer on the beach that day and apparently the boys had seen us playing. While we were by the bathrooms the boys asked if they could join in a game and we said we would be playing the next day. SO... The next day we all meet up on the beach and have a nice game of soccer. Quite spicy if I do say so myself. James and I are both soccer players. SPICAYYY. Anyways after a nice hot game of soccer we all decide to cool off in the OCEAN O: Before I go on I have to mention I was wearing a swim suit top that was almost strapless, it had straps going around the neck though. So we were swimming... I was out there with the three of them... then I went under a wave and when I came back up Cody, James and Bryan were all staring at me O_O I was like... what? Then I looked down and my swim suit top had fallen down and everything was exposed. I immediatly went under the water and swam away and pulled up my top on the way there. I was so embarrassed... luckily the boys acted like nothing happened. So yeah. That's one of my embarrassing moments. Not getting another one of those swim suits... nobody needs to see my goodies!
Every year I go to Carpinteria, California with my family and all of my cousins and we just have a big party. Carp is where you can camp RIGHT next to the beach and swim whenever you want. The two best things in one... camping and the beach. Well anyways... my cousins, siblings, and I for some reason always hang out by the bathrooms... we really have no idea why. But we met this dude... his name was Cody and he was there with his friends... James and Bryan. At the time I was 14. Cody was 19, James was 16 and Bryan was 14. Surprisingly the one that I was attracted to and the one that was attracted to me was James. I thought I was so cool because he was 16 and I was only 14.
My whole family (including relatives) had played a HUGE game of soccer on the beach that day and apparently the boys had seen us playing. While we were by the bathrooms the boys asked if they could join in a game and we said we would be playing the next day. SO... The next day we all meet up on the beach and have a nice game of soccer. Quite spicy if I do say so myself. James and I are both soccer players. SPICAYYY. Anyways after a nice hot game of soccer we all decide to cool off in the OCEAN O: Before I go on I have to mention I was wearing a swim suit top that was almost strapless, it had straps going around the neck though. So we were swimming... I was out there with the three of them... then I went under a wave and when I came back up Cody, James and Bryan were all staring at me O_O I was like... what? Then I looked down and my swim suit top had fallen down and everything was exposed. I immediatly went under the water and swam away and pulled up my top on the way there. I was so embarrassed... luckily the boys acted like nothing happened. So yeah. That's one of my embarrassing moments. Not getting another one of those swim suits... nobody needs to see my goodies!
Friday, January 11, 2013
Teen Author Boot Camp-- Why I am So Excited
Why am I so excited for Teen Author Boot Camp? Probably because it is the best thing in this whole entire world!! Last year was my first time and I loved it so much I have to go back this year! I signed up last month out of being so excited! It's all the way in March but who cares?
Now let me tell you about my experience from March 2012 C:
So I didn't even know TABC existed until a friend of my moms, Angie Lofthouse (Author of Defenders of The Covenant, Consecrated, Renegade, and Refuge) Told me I should check it out and that her son was going. so I checked out the website and thought it would be an awesome event to attend... but I was terrified of not knowing anybody. I was and still am super shy so I was very skeptical about going by myself. Eventually I decided to go, even though I was going by myself. I could handle this! So on March 10th I woke up at 7:30 and was at UVU by 8. Lots of authors were there signing books including Brandon Mull, Tyler Whitesides, J. Scott Savage, and many more. I was being a loner and sitting by myself. But I wasn't alone for long. A boy and a girl came and sat next to me and asked if I was there with anyone. I told them I wasn't. I soon found out their names were Maddie and Kaesi. They both came by themselves but when they saw each other they decided to hang out because they recognized each other from school. But anyways... I went through the whole day with them and had a great experience! Better then I thought I would have!
I went through lots of classes where I learned A LOT and took LOTS of notes. Brandon Mull was the Keynote speaker and it was really fun to hear from him- he's really funny! ALSO, they gave us free UVU bottles and we could get fountain drinks whenever we wanted with no cost. Also, the lunch was ok too, Maddie, Kaesi and I met twins during lunch and hung out with them for the rest of the day, unfortunately I don't remember their names >.<
I loved every single second and I learned so much, I am so excited to go back and learn more and make new friends this year. If you are between the ages of 13 and 19 I strongly suggest you sign up for TABC! For more information visit: http://teenauthorbootcamp.com/
Oh and also if you sign up for TABC you can enter a first chapter contest and win prizes! :D Dooo it :D
(I will write a post-event blog post) :D
Now let me tell you about my experience from March 2012 C:
So I didn't even know TABC existed until a friend of my moms, Angie Lofthouse (Author of Defenders of The Covenant, Consecrated, Renegade, and Refuge) Told me I should check it out and that her son was going. so I checked out the website and thought it would be an awesome event to attend... but I was terrified of not knowing anybody. I was and still am super shy so I was very skeptical about going by myself. Eventually I decided to go, even though I was going by myself. I could handle this! So on March 10th I woke up at 7:30 and was at UVU by 8. Lots of authors were there signing books including Brandon Mull, Tyler Whitesides, J. Scott Savage, and many more. I was being a loner and sitting by myself. But I wasn't alone for long. A boy and a girl came and sat next to me and asked if I was there with anyone. I told them I wasn't. I soon found out their names were Maddie and Kaesi. They both came by themselves but when they saw each other they decided to hang out because they recognized each other from school. But anyways... I went through the whole day with them and had a great experience! Better then I thought I would have!
I went through lots of classes where I learned A LOT and took LOTS of notes. Brandon Mull was the Keynote speaker and it was really fun to hear from him- he's really funny! ALSO, they gave us free UVU bottles and we could get fountain drinks whenever we wanted with no cost. Also, the lunch was ok too, Maddie, Kaesi and I met twins during lunch and hung out with them for the rest of the day, unfortunately I don't remember their names >.<
I loved every single second and I learned so much, I am so excited to go back and learn more and make new friends this year. If you are between the ages of 13 and 19 I strongly suggest you sign up for TABC! For more information visit: http://teenauthorbootcamp.com/
Oh and also if you sign up for TABC you can enter a first chapter contest and win prizes! :D Dooo it :D
(I will write a post-event blog post) :D
Me, Kaesi and Maddie c: |
Meee c; don't look at it too long. You might go blind :D |
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Beautiful Creatures Movie
Me? Excited about the Beautiful Creatures movie... ONLY A LOT!! I kind of started freaking out when I saw the trailer. It's such an exciting feeling when a book you have read is made into a movie and you are like, "Yeah, I am so cool that I read it even before I knew it was going to be a movie." But seriously... MAJOR FREAK OUT. My insides are exploding.
I wanted to try and win tickets to the premier in L.A. but I am sad because it says its closed! Seemed like so many people went for it! So I entered to see Warm Bodies instead :( Even though I reallllyyy want to see that one! I mean... who doesn't want to watch a movie about a zombie who falls in love with a human? Its like Vampire --> Human with a twist!
But back to this movie/book... So amazing. Even though when I hear their accents I just can't take them seriously but it still makes me super excited and I think I might pee myself. You should read this book before it comes out as a movie!! If you want to read about what the book is about I would strongly suggest reading this summary... it's detailed but, and also I don't know if it gives away anything so if you don't want spoilers I am not sure I can assure this with this website. http://www.shmoop.com/beautiful-creatures/summary.html
amazing book.. can't wait until the movie is out, hopefully the movie doesn't mess the book up that much!
I wanted to try and win tickets to the premier in L.A. but I am sad because it says its closed! Seemed like so many people went for it! So I entered to see Warm Bodies instead :( Even though I reallllyyy want to see that one! I mean... who doesn't want to watch a movie about a zombie who falls in love with a human? Its like Vampire --> Human with a twist!
But back to this movie/book... So amazing. Even though when I hear their accents I just can't take them seriously but it still makes me super excited and I think I might pee myself. You should read this book before it comes out as a movie!! If you want to read about what the book is about I would strongly suggest reading this summary... it's detailed but, and also I don't know if it gives away anything so if you don't want spoilers I am not sure I can assure this with this website. http://www.shmoop.com/beautiful-creatures/summary.html
amazing book.. can't wait until the movie is out, hopefully the movie doesn't mess the book up that much!
Friday, January 4, 2013
Self Esteem Road Blocks
Hello all! My name is Jessalyn Adamson. I am sixteen years old and like many other girls I have had problems with self esteem. When I was in 9th grade I met a girl named Brynlee. She was skinny, beautiful with long hair and all the guys wanted her. She was my best friend and I was sooo jealous of her. I had a huge crush on this guy and she knew it and he asked her out and she said yes. I acted like it didn't effect me but it made me sad that she was always chosen over me.
And to add to all that Brynlees mom thought I was a slut. Her step dad said I was worthless. I made Brynlee tell me everything her mom and step dad said about me, I don't know why I had her tell me that stuff if I was just hurting myself. My self esteem was quickly dropping.
I began to hate going over to her house and hated being around her mom and step dad. You could tell her step dad hated being around me too, he was rude and acted like a know it all. He is a complete jerk... you wouldn't understand. Her mom acted like she had said nothing rude about me whenever I was around.
I felt like crap. My thighs were too big, my stomach was too big my face was too fat... I seriously felt like this picture below my picture. Absolutely terrible. Feeling bad about yourself is really the worst feeling ever. I know lots of other girls feel the same way, ugghhh it's bad. Low self esteem leads to bulimia and anorexia and those are things you don't want to get.
I am not in 11th grade and since then Brynlee moved across town, we aren't as good of friends as we were when she lived right next to me but I still consider her my best friend. We went through a lot together. My self esteem has hiked back up but I still have my days and thoughts. "You are too fat, go running more." "You don't need to eat this time." "Your stomach is supposed to be flat."
But I have just got to push them aside! I don't want my self esteem to go as low as it was before. I compare myself to every girl I see. Their thighs are skinnier, they have prettier faces, they have skinnier waists, their hair is long and beautiful. I hate that I compare myself to people but it has become more of a habit now. I just wish my body was perfect. I hate to admit that. I should be at peace with my body since there isn't much that I can do. It's just the way my body is. I seriously find it impossible to find peace with my body. It's going to take time but I am determined to do it. I don't want to feel this way about my body, I want to be ok with it and I want other girls to feel ok with their bodies too. Self esteem is a big issue and it's terrible to have to deal with. I know from experience!
And to add to all that Brynlees mom thought I was a slut. Her step dad said I was worthless. I made Brynlee tell me everything her mom and step dad said about me, I don't know why I had her tell me that stuff if I was just hurting myself. My self esteem was quickly dropping.
I began to hate going over to her house and hated being around her mom and step dad. You could tell her step dad hated being around me too, he was rude and acted like a know it all. He is a complete jerk... you wouldn't understand. Her mom acted like she had said nothing rude about me whenever I was around.
I felt like crap. My thighs were too big, my stomach was too big my face was too fat... I seriously felt like this picture below my picture. Absolutely terrible. Feeling bad about yourself is really the worst feeling ever. I know lots of other girls feel the same way, ugghhh it's bad. Low self esteem leads to bulimia and anorexia and those are things you don't want to get.
I am not in 11th grade and since then Brynlee moved across town, we aren't as good of friends as we were when she lived right next to me but I still consider her my best friend. We went through a lot together. My self esteem has hiked back up but I still have my days and thoughts. "You are too fat, go running more." "You don't need to eat this time." "Your stomach is supposed to be flat."
But I have just got to push them aside! I don't want my self esteem to go as low as it was before. I compare myself to every girl I see. Their thighs are skinnier, they have prettier faces, they have skinnier waists, their hair is long and beautiful. I hate that I compare myself to people but it has become more of a habit now. I just wish my body was perfect. I hate to admit that. I should be at peace with my body since there isn't much that I can do. It's just the way my body is. I seriously find it impossible to find peace with my body. It's going to take time but I am determined to do it. I don't want to feel this way about my body, I want to be ok with it and I want other girls to feel ok with their bodies too. Self esteem is a big issue and it's terrible to have to deal with. I know from experience!
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
2012 New Years Resoloutions
I always make up New Years resolutions but never do it... this year is going to be the one year that I try! Here are my New Years resolutions:
1. Spend less time off the computer and more time reading.
2. Write A LOT more, I need to spend a certain amount of time a day writing.
3. Finish at least 3 novels.
4. Run on the treadmill EVERYDAY.
5. Organize EVERYTHING.
6. Keep my room clean... I have cleaning problems.
7. GET A JOB!!!
8. Be more open to making friends instead of being super shy.
9. Try not to judge people based off of appearances as much as I do :(
10. Look for an agent... for my books ;D
1. Spend less time off the computer and more time reading.
2. Write A LOT more, I need to spend a certain amount of time a day writing.
3. Finish at least 3 novels.
4. Run on the treadmill EVERYDAY.
5. Organize EVERYTHING.
6. Keep my room clean... I have cleaning problems.
7. GET A JOB!!!
8. Be more open to making friends instead of being super shy.
9. Try not to judge people based off of appearances as much as I do :(
10. Look for an agent... for my books ;D
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